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LETTING GO
August 31, 2026 · 1 hr 6 minIn this episode I discuss my documentary, being a father and letting go of things that make you happy. I also get into how watered down mental health is becoming in the emergency services and the softness that it is creating. Enjoy! Grab…
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HIDE The HURT
January 7, 2026 · 51 minIn this episode I discuss the consequences to hiding a lifetime of hurt. I go on to talk about people who only want to support you when you're down, not when you're up. Enjoy! Grab My Book "Create Your Own Light": https…
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My Grandpa D.C. Howze and Random Childhood Stories
November 7, 2025 · 40 minI want to start telling more stories from time to time so in this episode, I decided to go off topic and introduce y'all to a man that I am writing about in my next book, my grandfather, D.C. Howze. The toughest of men, D.C. struggled as…
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FIT to HIRE but UNFIT for DUTY
October 27, 2025 · 52 minIn this episode I discuss Burnout and Generational Trauma. I go on to talk about the company you keep and Adrenaline fueled Infidelity. Thank you all for being patient with me while I took a much needed six month break. Enjoy! Grab My…
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Spouses Who DONT WANT TO KNOW
May 7, 2025 · 46 minIn this episode I discuss the importance of your spouse offering you a soft place to land before you land elsewhere. I also get into self-care, regular wellness maintenance and how exhausting it can be to always be ON. Enjoy!
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Everything to Lose and Nothing to Prove
January 28, 2025 · 44 minIn this episode I discuss struggling through a heavy depressive episode that won't seem to end. I go on to talk about being human and not having everything figured out but refusing to give up. I also talk about seeking validation from…
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Fake A$$ Brotherhood
January 5, 2025 · 56 minIn this episode I talk about the illusion of the First Responder Brotherhood. I go on to talk about the mindset of a young First Responder vs the mindset of a more veteran First Responder and how when you're down, people will rally around…
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When You WIN You LOSE
December 2, 2024 · 1 hr 1 minIn this episode I discuss the feeling of failing when you are winning and the emptiness associated with it. I go on to talk about the harshness of our communication and how it is received by those that are the closest to us. I also talk…
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Product of Your Environment
October 31, 2024 · 41 minIn this episode I discuss the future, being human and changing your path in life regardless of your circumstances. Enjoy! Grab My Book "Create Your Own Light": https://www.amazon.com/dp/b0892dp6qj/ Follow me on Instagram…
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It Must Be Nice
September 19, 2024 · 1 hr 26 minIn this episode I talk about the optics of life and what people see vs what they dont know. I also talk about why having a fall-back plan is not always the best solution to success. I further discuss being around people that want to see…
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The Illusion of Happiness
August 5, 2024 · 46 minIn this episode I talk about the current burn out that I am experiencing and how a simple shift in thinking is helping me breathe. I go on to talk about the illusion of happiness and the search for my old self. Enjoy! Grab My Book…
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A Hero's Welcome
June 26, 2024 · 39 minIn this episode I discuss the challenges of being physically injured in the line of duty vs morally injured in the line of duty. I go on to talk about prioritizing work and family and the broken homes of tough guys. Enjoy! Grab My Book…

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